Are you ready for this adventure? Someone asked me this the other day. Ready, or not, it's coming our way.
I've had a lot of people ask how I am feeling and/or how I am doing. For the most part, I feel "normal." At least physically. I don't know how to describe how I feel emotionally. Some days are better than others... hell, some hours are better than others. I'd say 90% of the time I feel strong and positive. I know I can do this. The other 10% of the time I feel anxious, scared, worried, and downright freaked out. I can usually revert back to me "cancer picked the wrong girl- I'm going to kick it's ass" attitude fairly easily. But those anxious feelings seem to be creeping up more frequently in the last couple days.
This week it's become a lot more real. Tomorrow, I have an appointment with the oncologist, the chemo education appointment, and a tele-medicine appointment with a UCSF genetic counselor. Busy day. And then the real fun begins- Chemo round #1 starts on Thursday.
The genetic test that I had done basically came back inconclusive or the technical phrase "variant of unknown significance." The oncologist wanted me to do some genetic counseling for my future planning. I'm happy we can start with a tele-medicine appointment, rather than going to San Francisco right now.
2019
This year, and 2018, have had some very big challenges for my family. Not everything was bad, but there's a lot of things we've bee...
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I found a lump. It’s in my left breast on the armpit side. I don’t remember the exact day I found it but it was in late February 2018. I...
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I didn’t realize it had been two months since I’d updated my journey here. I finished radiation on October 30. My skin handled it pretty w...
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One of Abigail's gifts to me was this amazing tattoo. The "<3 Mom" is my handwriting that she brought to the tattoo place...
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